Today I was forced to delete someone on Facebook because my friend broke up with him. This is the first time I ever had to do it, and was pressured to do so. I was asked every day since the break up if I'd done it yet. I mean, I don't expect to be friends with him outside of their relationship nor in the future, so it wasn't so big a deal. It was the fact that I was constantly asked and nagged to do so. I would have done it in due time, when all was dropped and almost forgotten. At a point that wasn't so obvious or noticeable. Something much more...subtle? Something that was my decision, not one that I felt was inflicted on me. I don't like the pressure and I definitely don't like being in between two people's relationship--or lack thereof. I wish to never be in such a scenario ever again.

There is mold on some old rice left in our fridge. All my roommates are pretending like it's not theirs and just letting it sit there. The day someone used my tupperware for that rice, I took note of it (I mean, I remember little things like when someone else uses my stuff). This is shit I will NOT miss when I graduate.

It's so irritating that I have to fiend interest in your petty, trivial encyclopedia of a collective memory, when you have so much potential with that brain. You ignore my brilliant posts, rants, ideas but expect me to retain all the trivia you spit at me. I miss the days when we could hold a conversational debate, I really do. Now you just can't hold an intelligent conversation with me anymore.

It's nice to know that even after two years there are still butterflies.

The way people feel like they need to be a part of group (like fraternities, sororities, clubs, committees, etc.) is the way I feel about religion. Sure I joined this lil sis program of a fraternity. It was a great experience and at the time, it was exactly what I needed. But as I grew, I needed something more. More what, I don't know. Maybe more professional, more mature. I mean, I am in a transitional phase in my life after all. So I joined clubs, I joined the senior committee. Indeed, it does occupy time, but it doesn't fulfill my increasing desire and need to be doing something productive, something altruistic. Something true and good. And luckily, on the lovely eve of Ash Wednesday, I realized religion is my org, my affiliation. And just with any of my other affiliations, there are things I support 100% and things I wonder, question. But I have more 100% affiliations with my religion than I do any of the petty, in-the-moment orgs I'm in. Religion is just another sorority, fraternity, whatever. We still have to rush, "learn the ways," and be initiated.